Nothing good can come from this. I know this. I KNOW THIS! So why do I continue to engage in this unhealthy addiction? He is most definitely a bad habit.
It all started in a moment of weakness, a need for a connection. And that is something that The Kid and I undeniably have. Talking with him is far too easy, far too comfortable, much too intimate: he is the only person I know who refers to me by name in a text. But while he provides that sense of comfort and grounding, he traps me in the past.
Our conversations always go there, because for some reason I can't let go. I can't seem to shake him. Five months out, his presence in my thoughts is fading, but he still lingers. Now that we are somewhere between something and nothing, he's finally able to say everything I wanted to hear: that we were dating and that he could have seen us together in the future. But now I don't want to hear it.
It all started in a moment of weakness, a need for a connection. And that is something that The Kid and I undeniably have. Talking with him is far too easy, far too comfortable, much too intimate: he is the only person I know who refers to me by name in a text. But while he provides that sense of comfort and grounding, he traps me in the past.
Our conversations always go there, because for some reason I can't let go. I can't seem to shake him. Five months out, his presence in my thoughts is fading, but he still lingers. Now that we are somewhere between something and nothing, he's finally able to say everything I wanted to hear: that we were dating and that he could have seen us together in the future. But now I don't want to hear it.
